Free Write - Aug. 23

I am so tired it is not even funny. Having to leave school and go to work just makes me want to pull my hair out. I wish I had time to do my homework right after class instead of having to wait until i get off at night.  Because when i get off at night i want to spend time with brett and braxen. brett is my boyfriend of 2 years now and also the father of my child, and i love him a lot. Even though he doesn't think so sometimes i would die for him if i had to. My moms birthday is today, she will only be 36, she started young but she is the best mom i could ever ask for. In my opinion she is to nice, she gets hurt and used way to much and it pisses me off.  She is going to florida on the 25th and i don't know what i am going to do. i dont live with my mom but i do see or talk to her everyday. she watches braxen on mondays tuesdays and wednesdays so it is going to be weird getting off and not going to her house. she will be there for 2 weeks, i hope she enjoys herself because she definately deserves a get away. i wish i could go with her but i have bills to pay so not working is not an option for me.  I only have 2 vaction days left so it wouldnt cover the 2 weeks.  Work is sometimes stressful becuase i work for at&t and there are many rude customers that call in about their service not working. i do believe that god puts you exactly where he wants you because i met my best friend at work. i really lost all my friends from high school when i got pregnant because i went from the crazy party girl to a girl that sits at home and constantly munched on whatever i could get my hands on. i was very emotional and mean when i was pregnant, its safe to say that the hormones did get the best of me. but i feel like anyone would be if they were being kicked from the inside. for the most part i loved being pregnant, but at the end i started to hate it. i do feel bad for everyone that was around me at the time.