free write - 10/2

i do not know why i am so tired today but i literally feel like the definition of the walking dead. thank goodness i had time to stop by the gas station to get coffee because i don't think i would make it through today without it. i need to start getting up and making my own pot of coffee because i have been spending way to much on it. sometimes i wish i didn't work so much because i really want to focus on school more, but i have to work because i have bills that are due and things i have to buy. braxen is crawling now and gets into everything! i honestly don't know what i am going to do when he starts walking, because i already don't trust him. i used to be able to just lay him on the floor with toys and he would  just sit there and play, but now that is not the case. he is obsessed with shoes, so that has been the thing to never leave on the floor becuase if they are on the floor then they will be in his mouth. he already has 4 teeth and weighs more than my best friends one year old and he is only eight months. the kid can't wear his size of clothes, everything that fits him is either 12 or 18 months. its so crazy how fast they grow because i feel like it was just yesterday that i had him. that is another reason why i wish i didn't work so much, i miss the times where i stayed home with him all day and just cat napped all day! he was super little then but i still miss it. somedays i want to have another one but when i actually think about it i really need to get through school first before that is ever going to be on my mind.