free write- 10/30

i had a lot of fun this last weekend which is really  nice because there has been a lot going on in my family recently. me and brett went to bolivar to his farm and really just had a weekend to ourselves which was nice. we went fishing and just watched movies in the cabin, so it was a cheap little get away. i feel like i will never get a break, i always feel like when life starts to get better, it will alreayd by ten times worse. my little man keeps me strong though. i really don't know what i would do without him. i love waking up to him everyday. i honestly don't know where i would be in life right now if it wasn't for him. he was such a gift. when i found out i was pregnant with him i was headed down the wrong path very quick, so i'm sure he saved my life to be honest. i'm just really glad that i have brett and my friends to lean on becuase i don't have much family that i can lean on. i really want christmas break to be here too! i am loving school but i need a break from that too. i wish i just had a million bucks so i didn't have to work or worry but that isn't how life goes so i will just keep on truckin and pray for the best.